Wid tears on it

You know how much It even hurts me to be without you. I love you so much that my heart aches just of the thought of not holding you, seeing you, feeling your breath, feeling your warmth, seeing your beautiful eyes light up or hearing your voice. It just tears me up inside. But, this whole situation has just broken me to pieces once again. I dont know what hurts me more, to leave you or stay with you knowing I may never make you happy like I once truly did before. I feel like its just not fair to you or me to act and think the way I do. I feel like youre practically throwing it in my face with the comments you make. Everything feels like its being thrown in my face like its just obvious that we cant be together anymore. My eyes just cant see it but I feel it. I dont want to feel it I dont know how to fix it Its not fair for me to be saying things anymore, I am just to tired of it i know you will be fine if I leave, you always manage to have a rebound and it obviously will have to be . I dont mean that in a bad way but I know I have to be strong either way. I either have to be strong to deal with what lies ahead for us or be strong to just put an end to us before I make myself crazy. Please just do whats truly right in your heart.

Insanity

broken promises lead to tempting lies,
and ead each one is buried behind your eyes.
longing hearts you have deprived,
calling out in desperate cries.
sit and watch my bleeding heart,
feel my life fall apart.
talk to the shadows on the wall,
knowing that ive lost it all.
listen to the voices inside my head,
understanding every word theyve said.
telling me that im insane,
and youre the only one to blame.
the only word i hear is suicide,
thinking its the best way to die.
looking around i finally see,
death is not the one for me.
to suffer like this would be best,
and let insanity take over all the rest.

love

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone. I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away? Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in? Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil. The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom. Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words. You wake to suffer through the day. Trade a dream for the pay. Well here's the fact, I hope it sticks. You're just alive out of habit. I swear to you on everything I am. And I dedicate to you all that I have. And I promise you that I will stand right by your side. Forever and always until the day I die. Hate can be a positive emotion. When it forces you to better yourself. I will not be broken. I am the one. Just live and breathe. And try not to die again. Don't lose touch with life's reality. Compensate for life's stupidity. My heart bleeds no more. Now it's been turned to stone. Leave me alone. Don't come any closer. I'm so alone. And you call me a loser. There once was a time When silence meant nothing to me. These questions in my mind Are so much bigger than life. I need not your wicked weapons. my war is not with someone like you. staring at the world. through the hole you. put through my head. I might look young. But I'm no less defeated. Just talking with my shoes. Converse with my Converse

love

This week i've been thinking of you a lot, every time we say we will see each other i always pull away. I am scared that i can control myself i am scared that i will love you more than i already do. I don't know if it was a good idea that we agreed to be friends, then again being friends is better than nothing right? i know we said give up, i know i said i won't wait. But actually everyday i am waiting, everything i do i do it for you. If one day i interrupt anything i promise never to call again. i promise i will only keep everything i have inside my heart - i will not see you i will only wish you happiness from far away. It makes me dizzy just thinking of you, my heart skips a beat when i call you, when i see your photo i feel the memories come alive. can we really make new memories in the future? or did you leave me with only the ones we already have?

the truth.. the truth is, i cannot forget you no matter how hard i try.

i love you